Sigh...After months of erratic posting and wavering, I am officially and indefinitely throwing in the towel with Beauty in Bits. This will be my last blog post until further notice.
I've been sitting on this post for a few weeks. I needed to be sure. The bottom line is that it's become a burden--one more thing on my to-do list that's not getting crossed off. It's not that I don't enjoy writing, or have anything to say, it's that I have too much to say. I could talk about design and parenting and food, and social issues all day long. But I don't have all day.
Each day of my busy little life, small events are followed by the sentiment "that would make a great blog post," and it's actually inhibiting my ability to enjoy these moments for what they are. It's exhausting and has resulted in loads of gorgeous photos waiting to be shared, half-written posts and general brain chaos.
I wanted to write about design, cooking, projects around my home, my kids, life in Austin. I still haven't written about Huck's birth story. Let's see if I can quickly sum it up. Um..I worked my ass off. My hopes were high. It was heart-breaking for everyone involved. The people I love, and this gorgeous, perfect child helped me decide to get the fuck over it. Done. See, maybe I don't need a blog.
I can't seem to keep up with documenting the beautiful bits each day. There are too many, and while this is a good problem to have, the "look at me, look at me" culture of blogging and social media have left me spinning in too many directions at once and forgetting my priorities.
First of all, I am obsessed with my kids. They are ridiculously cute and amazing and pure and exhausting and I cannot spend one more minute telling them to "hang on" while I post pictures of pretty vases or whatever.
Huck's newborn phase is already over, and we're starting to think about Ruby's education. My husband is hitting a major career groove, we're starting to look for a house to renovate, and to put down some serious roots. My life is happening all around me RIGHT NOW and I feel obligated to document that we went to the grocery store today. Is this really how I want to spend my time???
I want to spend less time writing about design and more time actually designing. Less time spewing about healthy parenting and fresh food and more time teaching Ruby how to cook.
I want that big pile of art supplies on my desk to be a big pile of art. I'm simplifying my brand, my home, my life. Maybe I'm just getting old and I've outgrown the superfluous things that used to feed me.
Here's a slew of neglected photos/posts to leave you with something lovely until I see you again.
and lots of love,